Buttered-Side-Down

Do you ever have one of those days that starts off sucking, and then continues to suck?

Yeah, this is definitely one of those days. One of those “Murphy’s law” days. For those of you who don’t know what Murphy’s law is, let me explain: it states that whatever can go wrong will go wrong or whatever can go wrong will go wrong, and at the worst possible time, in the worst possible way. Sound familiar? I thought so. I think this verse sums it up quite simply and accurately:

I never had a slice of bread,
Particularly large and wide,
That did not fall upon the floor,
And always on the buttered side.

Yes, today, Thursday May 29, 2008, is one of those buttered-side-down days. Well, nothing too terrible has occurred (I mean, all my limbs are still intact and I can still recite the alphabet flawlessly in the correct order), but I’ve been in a crappy mood since I opened my eyes this morning, and that makes all the stupid stuff ten times worse. But I guess to sum it up, I’m sleep deprived, I’m feeling insecure and less than attractive, my stomach hurts, I’m down $20 from poker, I’m feeling super pessimistic, and I think I’m quite bored with the regularity of life. And I’ve been questioning a lot of my own decisions and actions and the motives behind them – whatever that means.

Anyway, someone recommended The Black Swan by Nassim Nicholas Taleb and I think I’m gonna stop by Borders tomorrow to pick it up. The book discusses highly improbable/unpredictable events as well as human nature, and how we deceive ourselves with our own logic and reasoning. It’s been a while since I’ve read a good book that gives me a lot to think about and to discuss with others.

I think now I’m just gonna hang out, relax, get some sleep, and hope tomorrow’s a better day.

And if Murphy’s goddamned law comes back to kick my ass, I’ll just go home and immerse myself in my new book. And maybe sulk a little bit. And maybe eat lots of junk food.

Miserably yours,

Betty